May 20, 2017

May 20, 2017

My Actual Goal In Life

My Actual Goal In Life

I don't know if it's cliche but as I've been working for almost two years now (I know it's still early but whatever), I realised that I hate to work under other people's command. Though criticism would help us improve our work, the kind like 'Tu pon taktau, kau belajar apa dulu?' really hurts. So I decided that in the end, I WILL BE A BOSS.

If you read my post 'The Love-Hate Relationship' and 'That Once In A Lifetime Chance', you'll probably know that I sometimes still in dilemma between loving my job or hating it. Though I do enjoy my job but believe it or not, to be a professional architect is not my life goal (well, sometimes still contemplating about that).

My actual goal in life; I really really want to state that I want to be a traveller with full time blogging as my career but as far as I could see, it's almost impossible. But who knows what would happen in the future so I'll just leave it here, hoping that if this comes true, I could blog about it, saying 'Yes, I've achieved my dream'.

Looking far into the future with reality in mind, my actual goal in life is to own either an art cafe or a boutique, or maybe both(?), with freelancing doing architecture. I don't know how to cook or make coffee, nor I'm a fashionista tho, lol. I've always had a thing for these two kinds of business so yea.

Before owning any business, I really want to fulfil my parents' dream to see me working as a lecturer, plus it's a job I, myself want to experience too. To achieve this, I need to complete Master study first so wish me luck for my master application! I do plan to become a lecturer in 5 years time and slowly making my business career debut. I plan to own the art cafe/boutique before turning 40.

Of course, along with the life plan, I would travel oversea at least once a year. If some girls define their 'reward yourself' as shopping new handbags and stuff, mine would be travelling!

So that's a wrap of my life plan. Thought I needed to blog about it since I just recently decided what I want to do with my life. Oh, I planned the future without marriage in mind, maybe will get married at the age of 50? Teehee.

What's your life goal? Are you currently working on it?

Till then,

May 15, 2017

May 15, 2017

Overcome The Past I'm Afraid Of


Throughout our life, we wouldn't be able to avoid making mistakes, from as small as saying 'No' to your parents to as big as a crime where you'd be put in jail for it. I believe everyone has that one past they're afraid of, or is it just me?

I actually have that one particular incident happened that I'm afraid of. I won't reveal it here, but it's enough for you to know that I did something terrible, something I regretted a lot. That incident in some way affected my life at that moment and until now I'm afraid of it coming back to bite me in the future. Just the thought alone made me felt like committing suicide. Well, that's how huge the mistake I did, though I didn't go to jail for it, lol. Almost, maybe?

Here's what I learned after the incident;

Having the people you trust, the people who believe in you is a gift you will cherish for the rest of your life. I couldn't tell my family about the incident, I told my close friends instead. They didn't straightly judge me like everyone else. They listened to my side of the story, they helped me solve the problem and lent their shoulder for me to cry on. From that moment, I knew that these people are the friends I wouldn't be able to live without. I love you guys, you know who you are.

Be brave and confront the problem you caused. You were the one who did it so it's a cowardly act if you run from it. The problem wouldn't be solved if you don't confront and try to solve it. In the end, you're the one who would be imprisoned by it and trust me, it will affect your mental well-being, and that is a big NO.

One mistake doesn't make your whole world ends. No matter how huge the mistake you did, as long as you regretted doing it and you vow to not repeat it again, you're free from it! I know it will be hard to face the public, to hear insults and stuff but bear in mind that people were so boring they don't know what to do other than to talk bad and judge you, but it will only be temporary. Held your head high and face them like a boss, because these people who only brings you negativity shouldn't be in your life anyway.

Here's a confession; The incident happened over a year now but I still can't get over it. Sometimes it hunted me down in my dreams and like I mentioned earlier, I'm afraid of it coming back to bite me in the future. But for now, I choose to just embrace the present and slowly trying to let it go.

Do you have the past you're afraid of? Did you get over it yet?

Till then,

May 6, 2017

May 06, 2017

The Blue Sky Tag

Well, I've been so busy lately but I hope I'm not that late for doing this 'Blue Sky Tag' post. Answering questions or doing this tagging post had always been so much fun especially when you have no idea on what to post. So thank you Farahz for tagging me.

And since this post had been long overdue, I'm gonna just answer Farahz's questions and ignore all the rules of this tag;

1. Thank the person who tagged you - Did this in the first paragraph, if you noticed *wink
2. Answer their 11 questions
3. Tag 11 people
4. Give them 11 questions to answer

So here are the questions:

1. What was the last song you listen to? Describe about it.
I listened to some music while driving this morning and it was Martin Garrix's Animals. The song is my all time favourite from him. I don't really know what to address the song (or track?) as it doesn't have singing in it. I first fell in love with such songs when I discovered people do covers of these songs using drum pads. I really enjoy Martin Garrix, Skrillex and Alan Walker.

Here's a link to the song, hope you'll enjoy it as much as I did: 

2. What kind of music do you prefer to listen when you're driving?
This actually depends on my mood. If I feel like speeding, I'll listen to fast beat songs especially hip hop such as Holup by Bobby. If I feel like driving peacefully, I'll listen to Ballad.

3. What is your favourite band?
I don't care if they don't consider as 'band' but I love them; BIGBANG, 5SOS, Fall Out Boy, 2NE1. Oh, I forgot to mention BLACKPINK, One Direction, iKON, Winner. Oh, and Twenty One Pilots, New Empire, Arctic Monkeys and the list goes on.

4. Do you prefer cheap but delicious food at mamak/warung or expensive and delicious food at hipster/famous cafe?
I'm okay with both (warung and hipster cafes) but not so much for mamak. I can only eat their roti canai. 

5. What is the thing that you're good at?
Eat, Sleep, Repeat. LOL
Okay, guess I'm good at drawing? Check out my works.

6. If you have to choose between friends and lover, which one would you prefer?
I've been single for the past 7 years and during that period my friends are my lover(s) so I would always choose them over my future lover.

7. How would you describe yourself?
Not friendly. Blunt. Bad temper. Love money and food. But despite all this, please still be my friend teehee.

8. Do you really love what you are doing now? (Study/job/etc)
I'm in a love-hate relationship with my job now. Sometimes it bores me to death but sometimes I love it that I don't wanna leave the office. You can read more about it HERE.

9. When did you start blogging?
When I was 16 years old (wow that's a long time ago).

10. Why did you start blogging?
It began as an assignment, and then for fun and fame and now it's a hobby. I've written about point 9 and 10 in a post HERE.

11. What do you love the most about your blog?
My face on the right sidebar. Okay, no. I love everything about my blog. I never regret whatever I wrote because they all came from my heart. But I do want to have my own domain and purchase at least one premium template. One day lah.

So you read all 11 questions I've answered? Thank you!

Till then,

May 2, 2017

May 02, 2017

Dear Single Ladies...

I was so exhausted last weekend. Our big family had a family day on Saturday and I moved to a new rent house on Sunday, after the family day. A bit about my family day, we stayed at Chalet Terapung Segantang Garam. The room price varied for room types. We booked a house with three rooms which cost RM420 for one night. Though I loved the short getaway, I was quite dissatisfied with the bathroom as the water supply was low pressure and the bathroom wasn't as clean as I expected it to be. But overall, I had a wonderful time as I loved the view so much especially the sunset view from our room.

chalet terapung segantang garam

chalet terapung segantang garam

Anyway, I moved to a new house last Sunday. I decided to move due to the long journey of 20minutes to my workplace from my old house while the distance between my new house to my workplace is only 8minutes. I rented the master bedroom with attached bathroom. 

As I didn't get a better look when I reviewed the room earlier, I was so shocked at the unhygienic conditions of the room. The ceiling and the wall were covered with cobweb while the ceiling fan was covered with thick dust. The white colour of the fan was hardly can be seen. The bathroom wall was so dirty, black spot was all over it. The toilet bowl was the worst of all, brown colour filled the bowl, clearly the previous owner never once cleaned her shit. I'm sorry for my language but I was so so mad at that time, still am, when recalling the moment. Like seriously, gurl? You left me your shit!

Dear single ladies,

I know we have all the freedom we want before we get married. We can do whatever we want, ignoring whatever people think about us but please, that doesn't mean we don't have to prepare ourselves for a married life and taking care of the hygiene around us is what should be our habit. Hell no, cleanliness is not only for married couple but it's our responsibility for ourselves. 

I honestly can't brain how you, unhygienic girls could dress up prettily when you went out but your room, your laundry was a mess and smelly and dirty! Harap muka je cantik. And the most important thing is, how can you perform your prayer in such a dirty surrounding as Islam clearly places great emphasis on cleanliness; 

"For Allah loves those who turn to Him constantly and He loves those who keep themselves pure and clean..." (al-Baqara, 222).

"He caused rain to descend on you from heaven, to clean you therewith..." (al-Anfal,11)

Dear single ladies,

I'm not saying to sweep the floor every second or clean the bathroom every time you take a bath but it's enough to just make sure your room, your house, is as clean as your appearance when you went out.

Siapa yang makan cili, dia yang terasa pedas. Soz not soz.

Till then,