December 30, 2016

December 30, 2016

My 2017 Bucket List

Time is running so fast that January 2016 felt like just last week. But nope, it was 11 months ago sheesh. Prior to my previous post of 'What Happened in 2016', I thought why not write a sequel to it, thus 'My 2017 Bucket List' came in mind. 


Who wouldn't want to go travelling, right? I'm sure to travel around the world is our shared dream. Since I started to earn money myself, I've been planning to go travelling at least once a year. I miss being on the plane, the last time was 2 years ago so I plan to go over the sea next year, maybe to Bali...or South Korea, hopefully.

Losing weight

Since two years in a row I thought of losing weight but typical unmotivated me failed to do so. I'm short and my current weight makes me listed in the overweight class and it's not cool. I should at least lost 10 kg to achieve my normal BMI. My cousin's transformation is another reason that I should lose weight and get that dream figure so dear self, let's kick it in 2017, okay?

Master Study

I finally made the decision to try my luck for Master study. I survived 4 years of degree life so how hard could it be for only another 2 years...right? Since it has been my dream to study abroad so I plan to apply for oversea universities, mainly in Australia. Wish me luck!

Play Guitar

As I mentioned in my post 'To Learn New Skills' before, to learn to play guitar made in one of the lists. I don't plan to learn professionally by attending classes but I just want to learn by myself, by watching video tutorials, during my free time. By then I can add one more hobby of mine. I wish I could at least smoothly play one full song by the end of the year. Oh wait, I'll need a guitar first *checks bank account

I hope to tick off all the lists above before ending 2017. Wish me luck!

What's your 2017 bucket list?

Till then,
December 30, 2016

My Brother is Getting Married

I appreciate the people who visit my blog, no matter if you're just a silent reader or just leave your mark in the Chatbox. The growing numbers on the stats really would make my day. But the one I'll always be grateful of are those who leave kind words in the comment section. They just give me the stronger feeling of wanting to blogging since I know there's someone who actually read my blog and loved it. I always reply each comment to show that I appreciate them but I think it's not enough. Well, call me lame but I just discovered the 'Top Commentators' widget, yeay. I added it in the sidebar, in the hope of people who visit my blog would click your profile and visit your blog too. Go hit them profiles, readers!

Back to the main topic, first of all, it's not my sibling who is getting married but it's my cousin, whom I cherished as a brother of my own. The family called him Abang Long. We both are at the same age and we're the oldest grandchild of the family of our arwah atok.

Typical of being the same age, we got compared a lot in term of our study results (he's better at studying), our attitude and now it's marriage. Honestly, the first time I heard that he's getting married, I had emotions conflict and 'sincerely happy' wasn't one of them. I've always thought I'd be the first one to get married out of the two of us, because hey, I'm a girl and girls usually get married first. 

I don't know how to put the feelings I had in words but 'the burden' of getting married became heavier since people around me kept asking "kau bila pulak?" and man I hate those words. It's maybe safe to say that I was jealous because I thought I should be the first one handing him the invitation to my wedding, not the other way around.

As we Muslims know that jodoh, rezeki dan ajal merupakan ketentuan yang ditulis di Luh Mahfuz so who am I to judge what has been written by Him, right? Plus, I do think that it's still too early for me to get married and I still want to enjoy the freedom I have for being single so I just simply ignore the "kau bila pulak?" questions. 

And I finally can say that I'm sincerely happy for him. He's getting married at the end of January, so please send him good and kind wishes. Congrats on your marriage news Abang Long, can't wait for a baby next, I'll become an aunt! Teehee.

Till then,

December 26, 2016

December 26, 2016

What Happened in 2016

2016 is coming to an end and looking back, there had been various events happened to me. I think I've hit rock bottom for some events happened and I was on could nine for some others. I was like, riding roller coaster the whole year because of so many emotions - happiness, also sadness along the way.


The 4 years of hell (read : study) finally ended. Though things happened regarding convocation but it is surely the one event I couldn't forget. The proud faces of my parents at that time was something I would cherish forever.


After months of being unemployed, I finally got the position I wanted at an architecture firm. Though it would be just for a year, the experience and knowledge I gained is something I'll never waste and for sure would be helpful for me in the future. Thank you to my colleagues, and of course my mentor architect, En Ramli Mat Ishak.


Since I just started working, I didn't get to go on vacation that much as almost 70% of my income goes to paying bills. But I went on a memorable trip to Penang on Chinese New Year. Couldn't wait for 2017 vacations!


What Happened in 2016

The exciting part of Raya this year was because it's my first time giving out duit Raya! Though it means I lost money but somehow it felt good giving my siblings and cousins their duit Raya. Kids, Along is a grown up. Teehee.


What Happened in 2016

My first ever concert experience was in August, for iKON. I didn't plan to go to the concert at first but since it wasn't so expensive because it was iKON's first time coming to Malaysia so I just grabbed the ticket. I was glad I decided to go to the concert as it was AMAZING. Definitely was my most exciting event of 2016. 

There were unhappy, terrible events happened but why would I ruin the happy mood, right? Let's just spread the positivity and hopefully 2017 would be better.

How was your 2016?

Till then,

December 25, 2016

December 25, 2016

My Worst Distractions

I have too many important things to do especially my freelance works but I'm honestly in a deep relationship with procrastination. In this entry, I want to share with you my reasons of procrastinating.


Be it K-drama, K-movie or even K-variety, I love everything Korean related entertainment so it is my worst distraction of all. I tend to prioritize the shows I missed rather than my actual works that needed to be done first. Once during my study days, I watched a K-drama non stop for three days so I was late for submission project and got my mark deducted. Regretted? Maybe. . .


What gamers wouldn't be distracted, especially if you're addicted to online gaming, right? Well, that's totally me. I may not am a pro gamer but I do play online games especially Blackshot. I loove shooting games. The worst thing is I own a Playstation at home so I would grab that game console whenever I feel distracted from my works.


I am one of those freaks who couldn't live without internet. It's bad, I know, but I couldn't help it. I'm on my phone for 24 hours if I have nothing to do. Just scrolling down my social medias and of course, my blogger reading list!


I can't say that I'm a bookworm as I'm not the type to read when I have free time (I would be on my phone or gaming instead) but I do love reading. I won't touch a book when I have works to do or I'll ended up not able to finish my works as I couldn't get my hands off the book when I started to read the first page. That's how devoted I am towards reading.

I really should learn to manage my time and restrain myself from any distractions before I finish my works. I will try...hopefully. 

What are your worst distractions?

Till then,

December 19, 2016

December 19, 2016

Can We Stop Criticizing People?

I found that we, netizen often tend to find something or weakness in people and criticize them for it despite their outstanding achievement that should've been talked about. (in case you don't know what netizen stand for : The term Netizen is a portmanteau of the words Internet and citizen as in "citizen of the net"-wikipedia)

The best and easiest example is regarding local artists. I watched Anugerah Industri Muzik (AIM22) yesterday and Yuna won a special award for her achievement in USA. To no surprise, more netizen criticized her appearance of wearing turban and fitted dress (for not being muslim enough? Duhh) rather than congratulated her for receiving the award. I'm not saying that it's wrong to criticize her as we muslim should tegur menegur each other for our mistakes but why can't we do it in a polite way rather than condemning SARCASTICALLY?

The same goes when Datuk Sheila Majid received her award, she gave a long speech she prepared in three pages A4 paper. But rather than listening and be inspired by what she was saying, netizen commented, "enough Sheila, no one wants to hear you". How do you know that no one wants to hear her speech? As far as I know, people clapped for each encouraging or touching statement she gave and she even received a standing ovation when her speech ended. Plus, she deserved to give the speech as she was the one in front of the mic, receiving a special award for her achievement in the industry.

I'm also furious at netizen bashing so called 'budak wechat', the broken English they posted on their timeline and the act became viral. Well if you're that great in English, why not politely corrected their mistake rather than humiliating them? Don't you think that we should help them instead of laughing at their mistake? Also, there's more important news should be viral such as the attack of Aleppo.

Just remember that the tip of the pen is sharper then the tip of the sword. Well, in this case, it's the tip of our fingers on the keyboard. Watch what we say as it could hurt others feeling and who knows what our words would affect them? Please noted that some people even attempt suicide for being a victim of cyber bullying.

Netizen please, we are better than that. Stop bashing, stop condemning sarcastically, stop criticizing, shall we?

Till then,

December 18, 2016

December 18, 2016

Wishlist #3 : To Learn New Skills

Apart from the desire wanting to own something, I've been thinking to learn something, to gain more knowledge, more skills to add in my talent. The problem is I'm not a fast learner and I have a deep relationship with laziness so I tend to procrastinate what I plan to do. 

Still, I'll list what new skills I've been wanting to learn here, so that whenever I stumbled upon this entry, I would be reminded to start learning, if I didn't yet. And who knows that you whom read this would want to learn too, we can be in this mission together!

To play musical instrument

I always adore people who can play any musical instrument. Also, it's so fascinating to watch movie or drama which are based on music such as Page Turner. I really really want to learn to play guitar or piano. As far as I know, most of the music prodigies learned to play when they were young so I kinda been discouraged as I think it's too late for me to learn. But now that I have a lot of free time, I think I might be able to play if I'm determined enough to learn so why not to give it a try, right?

To learn new language

It is a blessed being born as a Malay as I can speak Malay and since English is the lingua franca so learning English is a must but I think it's not enough with just the two language. I adore the work of an interpreter, my mom wanted me to be one, but at that time, the thought of having to memorize things made me wanna puke. 

Now that I started to work and do interact with Chinese and Indian, I always felt left out when they're conversing with each other in their language. Then I started to have the idea to learn Chinese and Indian so that I could understand them, not to mention that the best thing is I'll know if they're badmouthing me. Teehee.

To play sport

I was a volleyball player back in my school days, ahh how I miss those moment. But since volleyball is a team play so I don't play it anymore, now that I don't have a team. The sports I want to learn are swimming, roller blade and skate boarding, things I can do alone. I think I'm most desperate for swimming as I can't fully enjoy playing in water park since I can't swim and that sucks real bad. Oh and I even want to try surfing when I get the chance someday.

I'm giving you a pat on the back if you have any of the skills I mentioned above, I envy youu. Is there anything else that you think I would love to learn? 

Till then,

December 15, 2016

December 15, 2016

Loving The Eyes

Just so you know, I rabun actually. Both my eyes power are 250 and I think it's quite high. I first discovered that I'm short sighted was during my study days, you can read it here (kisah si mata). But I really really hate wearing glasses. I think a first timer can relate to this, our tudung wouldn't 'jadi' when we wear glasses, well I think I look hideous with spectacles on. That's why I love wearing contact lenses. 

But it just recently that I fell in love in colourful lenses. And I want to brag to you about my latest collections. I bought these two pairs online at qaylaa_lens Instagram. It was during promotion that they cost only RM40 for two pairs include postage, so cheap!

Loving The Eyes

The brown colour code : Winnie Brown. It has no rings and I love lenses with no rings!
The blue colour code : Premium Anna Blue 
Specification : 
certificate lenses
made in korea 100%
water content 52%
3 months disposal

Qaylaa_lenses was super efficient, it's my first time dealing with them actually and without a doubt I'll repeat order next time. As for the lenses, they're super comfy and easy to apply on.

Here's a look at the blue one I wore earlier today. Aren't they beautiful? Yeah I mean the lenses, not my eyes. Teehee.

Loving The Eyes

So for contact lenses lovers out there, I would recommend you to buy these lenses, they're gorgeous.

Till then,

December 14, 2016

December 14, 2016

What Scares Me The Most

When I had my trainee days two years ago, I rented a room in a house. There were two other girls, my housemates at that time, but they didn't stay long as they were ending their semester. So practically I lived in the house alone.

I rented the master bedroom, with a private bathroom. It was unoccupied for a long time so it was so dusty and all, I had to clean it for two days for it to be livable. The bathroom was okay, fortunately. No greeny wall and stuff but damn cockroaches would magically appeared at night, suggestively they came from the floor trap and maybe they hated the dark? I mean that much explained why they only appeared at night, since the underground was dark and I switched on the light of the bathroom.

Well, I wasn't afraid of cockroaches so I just killed them using my bare hand, okay that's exaggerating, I used tissue. Can you believe it? While everyone would kill them by slamming slippers or brooms or books on them but I just used my hand with only a piece of tissue separating my skin and the cockroaches. That was badass of me. Was.

Then there came one night when my friend, Yaya accompanied me so I decided to switch off the light in the bathroom, to sleep with complete darkness. It was okay until I felt something creeping on my body and guess what? Yeap, a cockroach. Yaya turned on the light and we found that many, MANY cockroaches in the room! Hell, I can't remember how loud we screamed at that sight. 

We basically was in a war with those freaking cockroaches, with brooms in our hands each, trying to kill those creatures that invaded our room. And that moment was the first time I witnessed flying cockroachessss, trying to avoid death. How the hell didn't I know that COCKROACHES CAN FLY? 
I regretted I switched off the light. They should just stayed in the bathroom!

Thanks to the incident, I now have a phobia towards cockroaches. I can't kill them, too afraid they would fly onto my body. I'm terrified even to have a look at them, or even their photos.

There, cockroaches scare me the most. How about you?

December 12, 2016

December 12, 2016

Favourite Artist : Bigbang

I know all of us have that one particular artist that we fangirling over...okay maybe not ALL of us but majority do. Well, my forever favourite group is Bigbang (yeah, I'm a Kpopper). 
The group consists of 5 members, GD, Taeyang, Daesung and my bias, TOP. I can't say that I followed them from the very beginning, which was 10 years ago because I know nothing about Korean entertainment back then. I also can't tell exactly when I first heard about Bigbang or when I first listened to their song because I don't really remember. Teehee.

I just became their fanatic fan (I'm saying REALLY fanatic) when they released their 'ALIVE' album back in 2012. But even before ALIVE came out, I did listen to their old songs. At first, it fascinated me that I could actually enjoy listening to their music even though I have no idea what the lyrics were about. But then I guess it's because of the melody, or is it called rhythm?. I'm no expert in music but I think everyone loves the melody first before we actually listen to the lyrics.

However, ever since I started to listen to Kpop, I tend to look at the lyrics first before letting myself addicted to the song as I afraid the lyrics might contains something I shouldn't sing along to, especially religion related things. So I've read every lyrics to the songs and I madly in love with lyrics to the song 'blue'.

And after idolizing these guys for years I finally got the opportunity to attend their concert in October. Even though TOP wasn't there, the concert still was amazing, I can't get over it for few weeks and I still can feel the excitement as I recalled it. Here is a photo of the concert, a poor quality, I knoww.

They just released few new songs, their final as five members of Bigbang before they start their military duty one by one, starting from TOP on 9th Feb *crying a river*. Click the link below to watch the MVs (if you're interested), also to contribute on the view counts.

I don't think I will ever get over Bigbang. So who's your favourite artist?

December 10, 2016

December 10, 2016

A Bad News To Celebrate New Year

It finally was a very nice sunny morning, after a few days of rain and thunderstorm, and it was payday. I went to work in a happy mood, working my ass off to finalize the drawings that needed to be done by the week when suddenly I've been summoned to the boss's office. 

If you think it's not a big deal, know this, I've NEVER been called by the boss EVER so it was my first time after a year I started working so it creeped me out actually. Plus, the old man wasn't the kind of boss that you could have a laugh with. He's strict. VERY strict. Trembling holding my notebook, I marched toward his office with complicated mind, thinking what could possibly be the reason that he wanted to see me.

When I thought that he wanted to discuss the matter about work, man I was wrong. He asked about my family, my future plan to continue my studies, how long have I been working and how it was for a year working in the company. I knew he was just beating around the bush and even though I was so eager to ask him to just get to the point, I just played along. I mean, I'm just an employee, duhh.

"You know that we're short of projects and the work aren't that much anymore so I've been thinking to reduce staff,"

If you ever experienced being told to resign then you know how did I felt at that moment. The first thing that came in mind was my parents. How would I tell them? How can I help them and not being a burden again? (I've been helping with money, not that our family is poor but that's what a working child would be a help of, right?).

My boss kept telling me that it's not my fault, me working was excellent, I'm a good worker, yada yada but sir, you still broke my heart *insert crying emoji*. Anyway, I figured I've been asked to resign because I'm the newly-est hired. So if you're newly hired and working in a private sector, brace yourself. Not trying to scare you, but with our economy in its worse state right now, anything could happen. Well, I obviously didn't see that coming.

So there goes my not-so-happy new year news.

p/s : on the bright side, I finally get a long holiday I've been wanting to, yeayy!

Till then,

December 7, 2016

December 07, 2016

My Reading List

If you looked at my Blog Archive, you'd know that I wasn't that consistent in updating my blog before. The main reason (apart from lacking in ideas) was I've no motivation to update my blog. As I stated before in 'How Did I Started Blogging', I took the first step to start a blog was because I fell in love in blog Realiti Konspirasi and I couldn't find the love anymore after the author stopped blogging.

Few weeks back, I stumbled upon a few blogs that captivated my heart once again. I followed these blogs to keep me in my motivated self so that I won't neglect this blog like I did before. So I want to share with you my reading list here, hoping that you'd love them too.

I have to state here that I love every blogs that I followed (obviously, otherwise I won't follow) but the list I'm writing down are my favourites.

If you love to read random posts especially on lifestyle and personal posts:-

Vivy Yusof (click here)
Liyana Jasmi (click here)
Zety (click here)
Jiha Nasir (click here)

If you're up for a travelling experience through reading:-

Kaki Berangan (click here)
Jari Manis (click here)

If you're into beauty/blogging related posts:-

Erin Azmir (click here)
Lenne Zulkifly (click here)

If you want to reflect yourself and be motivated a bit:-

Teme (click here)
Anwar Hadi (click here)

Though I said a certain topic for the lists, bear in mind that the blogs wasn't solely on the topic I stated but it's their blogs mostly about...right?

So what are your favourite reading lists? Mind to share?

Till then,

December 5, 2016

December 05, 2016

Don't Judge

It's really hard to live in the world where there's no hiding spot for you, the world where everything is public and the most upsetting thing is you can't avoid being judge for everything you do.

People won't stop judge you, their disgust eyes eyed you from top to bottom when you're different from them, when you do something out of the norm, or made a mistake. Despite you wanted to change, they would still look at you with those eyes, never intended to give you a second chance at living.

The saddest part is, you try to convince yourself that it doesn't matter how people look at you, to hell with those eyes when you actually doing something that makes you happy and tell them to mind their own business but no. It actually does matter! How they think of you would effect your mood and especially your confidence.

Don't be. They don't know the true story behind your actions so they have no right to affect your emotion, your life. 

To the people who always judge others, without knowing the story, the people who think they're ALWAYS right, I'm sick of you guys. Stop trying to be the hero of someone else's life.

Till then, 

December 2, 2016

December 02, 2016

What Do You Do For Fun?

It was a sunny day and I was chilling with a hot chocolate (since I hate coffee) on my hand and my phone on another. When I thought of having that happy alone moment, my friend texted me. We chatted for a while, the girl was having a rough day. After all the rants about how our day was, she suddenly asked, 

"What do you do for fun?"

I unknowingly froze at that moment, my mind went blank, trying to figure out what should I answer her.
'What do you do for fun?' I guess have the same vibe as 'what is your hobby?'
The kind of hobby you do whenever you're bored or when you have free time to spend. I don't know about you but it's a very difficult question to answer for a grown up me.

I remember that I loved cycling when I was a child. I was jealous of my friends who went to school by cycling with friends. While me, abah dropped me off school, riding his motorcycle. I can still remember how happy I was the moment abah brought me to a bicycle shop. He got me my dream bicycle and since then, I was rarely home during the evening. I'll ride my bicycle around the neighbourhood with friends. Fell off the bicycle and hurt my knee? Been there, but still loved cycling nonetheless.
The time I got my motorcycle license, I ditched the bicycle. That's how the cycle, right? New toy, got rid of the old one.

In uni days, I've been busy with projects and all so I don't really have time to have fun. But I made sure I went to the cinema every time a new movie was released, no matter how bored it was. I mean, the trailer was always interesting so it's not my fault that the actual movie was boring. Damn you, trailer makers.
Growing up now, I regretted what I did, it was a lot of money. Imagine that I never went to the cinema, I might can open one already.

But now, I don't really have the answer to that question. It's always the same routine everyday, going to work, eat and sleep while doing absolutely nothing during weekend. If there's something I did during that two off days, it's blogging and drawing. Uh right, maybe those can consider as fun, a hobby...I guess?

I think it's only fair if you get the tricky question so, what do you do for fun?

Till then,

December 1, 2016

December 01, 2016

The Thirst For a Compliment

I don't know if it's a nature of being human or particularly being a girl or it's just me but a compliment sure can change my mood to be happy all day and it made me feel on cloud nine every time I recalled about it...with a silly smile plastered on my face, making everyone around me wondered "gila ke apa dia ni?". There, that's the effect of a compliment on me.

The one thing I'm good at, and being complimented on, is my sketching skill. Knowing that I'm the only one in the family who can draw, I always post my drawings in the family WhatsApp group, wanting a compliment from my family members. My typical younger brothers, of course, wouldn't compliment me but my parents would, so it's enough to make my day.

I first get inspired to draw was when I get drawings update from my seniors, Syahmi and Mey Kamal, in their Instagram (click their names to go to their Instagram). They both started as an architecture student, eventually improved their sketching skill by practicing and now both of them are well known among people who loves art. 

Yes people, practice does make perfect, I've proved it. My sketching skill wasn't good from the beginning. In the early year of studying architecture, I was always down for not able to draw while people around me could produce a realistic drawing. But I never gave up, and keep practicing until I now can proudly say that I can draw.

So I came up with an idea to make a sketch post at least once a month (because I rarely sketch these days). Here is my first, for December, a sketch of Taj Mahal, India. This one is my latest, proudest sketch. 

Hope you like it, AND COMPLIMENT ME, PLEASEE teehee.

Till then,